Just wanted to first say a thank you to Rae for letting me borrow her Camera. Yay! I got pictures taken of the clothes that I want to put up for sale online and uploaded without any problems to my laptop. :-D

And on other notes ... my weekend is half over! That sucks. I feel like I haven't gotten near what I wanted to get done done. And I'm bored out of my mind. Nothing on television is interesting, and I'm out of books to read. I could do crafty stuff, but I just haven't been able to motivate myself to do anything with my sewing. I did take some books by to half price books today to sell. They rob you blind! I only got 3.00 for 12 books. And some of those books were over 20.00 a piece when I bought them. They are fairly new too. I was hoping I'd get enough out of the bag of books to take and buy the new Anne Rice book that just came out. I've been itching to read it ever since I found out about it. But, alas, no where near enough to buy it, and my expenses right now just wont allow it otherwise. I wasn't even able to get my coonhound that I wanted (and Steffie said I could have dammit) after getting a boatload of dr. bills in the mail last week. Grrr.

Steffie was going to come up this weekend but had to rearrange plans to make a trip to Chicago. *sighs* Three weeks is too long! And now it will be at least another week if not two. I don't know how much sense it would make for her to come up next weekend and then me to head down there the weekend after next to help her move. That's a lot of gas money esp. considering the drive to Chicago this week.

Gonna spend tomorrow moving furniture and cleaning up and trying to make the place uncluttered and presentable. After the chaos of rearranging things in the spare bedroom and emptying out my closet, I'm dying for a bit more order.

Sunday afternoons/evenings should be shared with friends and family. Sundays growing up were always the days where we slept in til lunch and then went out to my grandmother's to spend the afternoon with all my aunts and uncles and cousins. We played and caught up on the week and made plans as a family before sharing the evening meal. It was out together day. It was our way as a family to stay close and connected.

Today I miss that. My younger cousin had a bridal shower today, and all of the family was there for her except me. We two have never been close, but she's family. It's an important event, and I missed it. I talked to my grandmother on Friday during the day, and I realized that I hadn't talked to her in about a month. That never use to happen. Granddaddy's birthday is next week too. It will be the second birthday without him. I worry about her. She's there in the house by herself all the time except when one of the family stops by or she goes to the doctor's office or something like that. I can only imagine she must get lonely. I miss them all this weekend more than normal.

And I hate coming home alone on the weekends I spend in Des Moines. I know it won't be too much longer, but I still don't like it. It just seems paricularly awful to have to do this weekend. I like my alone time. I need it on a basic level every now and then or I'll go crazy. But it's so nice to have someone to come home to. Even if you aren'ty in the same room or doing the same thing, it's nice knowing someone is around. I'm even alone in the whole house today. The neighbors are gone. It's too quiet, and I ran out of things to do very quickly.

Just felt like whining for a moment, and now I'm done. Nothing I can do to change things at the moment, so no use in whining too much about it. It feels good though for just a moment.